Letters to Rob

Tomorrow it will be five years since Rob died. Each year, I write Rob a letter. I share my letters in hopes of healing, for me and for others who are grieving. I have also included a poem that I wrote trying to understand what Rob, and others struggling with addiction, might be feeling…….. Dear Rob, How can it be that five years have passed? Time stands still in so many ways, and life came to an abrupt stop on … Read More

Dear Rob, Happy Birthday. This year you would have been 23 year’s old. It marks the 5th birthday that we celebrate without you. As I always say…. in some ways it gets harder with each passing year because it is that much longer since I have seen you. I think about your last day here; we spent the day together at Leah’s cross country meet. You promised to buy your sister her favorite Michael Kor’s watch if she won for … Read More

Rob’s room has remained the same since he died. His shirts still hang in his closet, along with his ties and cool belts, and his dresser drawers are still filled with the rest of his clothes. Sometimes I still don’t know how to live without him or who I am without him, however; I do know that I’m a survivor. Last night I was able to pass on some of Rob’s clothes to a special young man… Sean. Thank you for … Read More

I made a promise to share my journey of grief. Tomorrow it will be four years since I lost my beautiful son Rob. I miss him more than my words can ever express….. Dear Robert, It has been four years. It still feels like yesterday, and at the same time, it feels like forever. People probably think that it gets easier over time; however, the longer I go without seeing you, the more I miss you. Time certainly does not … Read More

Each of you own half of my heart. Leah, you are my reason. Rob… for you, because of you and in memory of you. Honored and incredibly proud to be your mother. ❤ More Happy Mother’s Day to ALL

It was a very busy week with The Community Forum, The Drug & Violence Expo and The 2nd Annual Softball Tournament. After these busy times, I am usually hit with intense emotions that trigger a lot of reflection. I feel incredibly blessed to have found purpose and meaning after losing a part of myself. Robert continues to live on in the most meaningful ways, and through Rising Above Addiction and Reclaiming My Life, he will never be forgotten. My life … Read More

On Wednesday, February 21st, my beautiful son Robert would have turned 22 years’ old. Each year I write him a letter. Writing is a tool that helps me to express my feelings and also helps me to heal. I have promised to be open, honest and vulnerable about my journey of losing a child. My hope is that it also helps others who are going through hard times. I want people to know that they can survive, that they can … Read More

Dear Rob, Tomorrow it will be three years since I lost you. So much continues to change since you’ve been gone. I have realized that this constant change is inevitable, until every piece of my life is in the place it needs to be. It’s a death of self; who and what I thought I was is all but a “used to be.” I decided that I would be completely open with my letters and writings to you. Not only … Read More

….. is filled with what used to be, what I knew to be and is now the space within me I move throughout this space, existing simultaneously in between the day before and the day after you died The gifts that were given to me through your death help to solidify the space, attempt to fill the void and bridge the gap that separates our souls There is no love that compares to a Mother’s love for her child, and … Read More