Letters to Rob

For You, Because of You and In Memory of you… Robert Mason Lofink 2/21/96 – 9/14/14 Dear Robert, September 14, 2014… There I was, sitting in the front yard, hysterically crying and repeating the word “No” over and over again. I was so aware that my life had just ended, and that nothing would ever be the same. You were gone. It was such a beautiful day, on my most tragic day. It felt so cruel to be that beautiful. … Read More

Yesterday was not an easy day for me. Sometimes my grief gets the best of me, and I have pretty severe PTSD from the sudden death of Rob. Thank you Rob, for always giving me just what I need, to remind me that there is purpose in my pain. And, thank you for the perfect breeze today. I miss you so very much. 😪 For You, Because of You and In Memory of You ♥️More

Happy Birthday Dad… Losing you and Rob within nine months of each other has profoundly changed the course of my existence, and it has led me on a journey of finding purpose and meaning in life. Thank you for all of the important life lessons you taught me while here. The most important one being… don’t ever pass up an opportunity to tell people what they mean to you and how much you love them. I was blessed to be … Read More

This week has been very difficult to say the least. There have been many challenges surrounding addiction. With relapse, manipulation and mental health issues, it has been very difficult to navigate through this week. It all came to a head this morning, when a nurse at GBMC attempted to try and make me feel horrible, when I was trying desperately to help a woman who needed psychiatric help. Without love, understanding and compassion, people will never receive the help that … Read More

Dear Robert, Tomorrow, you would be turning 26 years old. Every time that I say that out loud, I tear up. I think how young you would still be and how much life you have missed. So many great things happen between the ages of 18 and 26, and you aren’t here to experience any of them. It makes me so sad to think of the memories we would have had with you, where you would be in your life, … Read More

Grief from losing you is… Watching an old tv show, and remembering who I was when I used to watch it. Being out, seeing people living their lives and remembering a time when I was that person. Keeping your name and number in my favorites, on my phone. Keeping your room exactly the same, your drawers still filled with your clothes and holding on to every material thing that I have left of yours. Knowing that if I change these … Read More