I have been witness to the true evil of addiction this week. Quite honestly, I have felt pretty defeated and have had to dig a bit deeper than normal to find my purpose in all of this. It is difficult, and it goes against human nature, to not fight for people. However, fighting for someone more than they are willing to fight for themselves tends to always end with a negative outcome.
In 2014, I had to face the brutal truth, that no matter how much I loved and fought for Rob, it would not be enough.
Today, that brutal truth is once again staring at me, and is my teacher, as I have to face the fact, that someone very dear to me might die.
I am a true believer, that no matter how difficult it may be, we must always find the gifts in pain, and I am so blessed to have received so many.
What this week has shown me…
First of all, I am loved!
Through this incredibly painful time, I have had the blessing of becoming deeply connected with and to the sober homes, and all of the wonderful young ladies who have passed through the houses, and the ones who are still there. You all help to preserve my faith in the amazing journey of recovery, and I love you all
Rob always thought that I had too much time on my hands and that I needed a full time job. That way I wouldn’t be so involved in his life He once filled out a job application at Kohl’s, in my name. They never called me!
Well Rob, I am busy!!! I guess you filled out an application for me and turned it in to God. 
For You, Because of You and In Memory of You
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