Reflections

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It was a very busy week with The Community Forum, The Drug & Violence Expo and The 2nd Annual Softball Tournament. After these busy times, I am usually hit with intense emotions that trigger a lot of reflection. I feel incredibly blessed to have found purpose and meaning after losing a part of myself. Robert continues to live on in the most meaningful ways, and through Rising Above Addiction and Reclaiming My Life, he will never be forgotten. My life … Read More

Robert’s 22nd Birthday Letter

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On Wednesday, February 21st, my beautiful son Robert would have turned 22 years’ old. Each year I write him a letter. Writing is a tool that helps me to express my feelings and also helps me to heal. I have promised to be open, honest and vulnerable about my journey of losing a child. My hope is that it also helps others who are going through hard times. I want people to know that they can survive, that they can … Read More

Dear Rob – Three Years

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Dear Rob, Tomorrow it will be three years since I lost you. So much continues to change since you’ve been gone. I have realized that this constant change is inevitable, until every piece of my life is in the place it needs to be. It’s a death of self; who and what I thought I was is all but a “used to be.” I decided that I would be completely open with my letters and writings to you. Not only … Read More

The Space between my Heart…

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….. is filled with what used to be, what I knew to be and is now the space within me I move throughout this space, existing simultaneously in between the day before and the day after you died The gifts that were given to me through your death help to solidify the space, attempt to fill the void and bridge the gap that separates our souls There is no love that compares to a Mother’s love for her child, and … Read More

Reclaiming My Life

Losing Robert has been an incredibly painful yet beautiful and profound journey.  Rising Above Addiction has given birth to a new life for me. It has allowed me to have my son live on in the most meaningful way; he is saving lives.   I am proud to announce that Rising Above Addiction is giving birth again. We are opening a Girl’s Sober Home.  To honor Rob, we will be naming the house in his memory, using his initials…… Reclaiming My Life… in … Read More

Holidays Without You

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I have had several people ask me how my holidays were and how I am doing….. Holidays and life after Rob…… This year was especially difficult for me. I am learning so much about loss as time goes by. It may sound strange to some people, but this year was the hardest yet. I think it was harder because it’s been even longer since I have seen my child; too long! Also, I have been rudely awakened from my numbed … Read More

Happy 21st Birthday Rob

Happy Birthday Rob, Today, you would have been 21 years old. It seems like it has been forever since I have seen you. I long to hear your voice and see you walk through the door. I still cannot believe that you are gone. So much has happened, and so much has changed since we saw each other last. I am still desperately trying to get my feet back on the ground. Losing you has made it impossible to continue … Read More

Loss….

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If you ever wonder if I want to give up, the answer is YES! Today has been one of those days. I can’t find my way out. I keep thinking that I don’t want to have to live this way; not one more day. Only the people who have known deep loss can understand life after loss. Is it even life? Sometimes it’s not. No matter what the day brings, including joy and laughter, there is always a hole. A … Read More

Thanksgiving 2017

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Every day, I have to make a conscious decision; to find peace and happiness even though half of my heart has been ripped out. And… even though I feel such indescribable pain, I also feel incredible peace, gratitude, strength, and fulfillment. My daughter Leah has blown me away. She has such grace, strength, resiliency, and a light shines around her constantly. I am in awe of her ability, to not just push through, but her amazing drive to be her … Read More

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